dream

I have a lot of dreams for my future. When it comes to education I would like to be well educated and successful in a career of something I love to do. I'd like to be a proffestional in any athletic sport, such as baseball. I would travel alot if I was apart of a team. traveling the country to face other teams. Eventually I would want to settle down and start a family. I would want to be married in the future and have kids. I hope I have plenty of experiences that involve my kids and my friends.

I hope my future holds a lot of success and good experiences that my family and I could be proud of. My dreams of my future are realistic but I would have to start now with my education. I also need to keep working hard on my athletics so I can get more noticed.

My dream when I'm older is to be a professional baseball player. My dream is to be a Boston Redsox player. I want to be baseball player because they make alot of money and I love baseball. I aslo want to take a vacation in Sydney, Australia because it's extremely nice there. But this dream is extremely unrealistic just like Gatsby's dream because I don't play baseball any more and even if I did it's almost impossible to get into the MLB.

When I am older i want to stay here in New England and have a family. I want to have pets but no too many, probably only a dog. I want to get a chocolate lab seeing how thast my favorite breed of dog. They not that smart of dogs but it's just going to be a family dog so that doesn't matter.

Deam life

When you think about your future it’s really not that far away. Our future now I would say is 10 more years from now. Where do you see yourself in 10years? For most of us we will be around 27 years old. But the question really is what do you see yourself doing and becoming before you get there? What type of education will you run into? What will the result come out to for your final career? Or will there be many careers? Where will you travel to along the way? What is your relationship status on your facebook info now and what types of friends will you have alone with it? I’m sure many will be added and deleted. Will facebook even exists? Think about the achievements you have made in one year. Now think about10years from now.

What types of material possession will you now have? Instead of driving cars on your video games now will you have a real one that you bought with your own money? What type of family will you now be running? Experiences wise what will that be like for good and for bad? And what you dream about now as a child will it someday be realistic or not? A hard thing to think about because most people don’t like to be let down when they have high hope but are they possible is the question? I believe anything is possible as long as you do it right. So look, look ahead and what do you see yourself being or doing 10 years from now? I have a good idea what mine will look like do you?

My education will continue after high school. During high school I plan to make money as a waitress at Sharp Hill Winery to make money to buy my first car at age 17. I plan to graduate in 2012. After I graduate I plan to go to QVCC for one year and then transfer out to UCONN. At UCONN I plan to study in the medical field to become a prenatal nurse. That will take around four years or more.

After a graduate from UCONN I will begin to search to hopefully find an open position to work at Daykimble Hospital as a prenatal nurse. Entering the real world of the work force I will be eager to find work right away not caring about the hours that they will expect me to work. Looking ahead I probably now will be around 22 years old. I plan to love my job and as a result make good money. I will be well off and will finally be able to purchase my first home in Woodstock Ct on Lake Bunge.

I plan to go on a big trip with my mother father and sister to Honolulu Hawaii. We will go see volcanoes, guided tours, go to Waikiki Beach. We will plan a day to all go snorkeling and have relaxing massages at paradise cove. It will be a nice vacation to relax and spend quality time together as a family.

At age 23 now I plan on getting married. As it stands right now I have an amazing boyfriend. I love him so much and can definitely see myself spending the rest of my life with him. He treats me so good and will do anything for me. I can not 100% predict this relationship to last forever because forever is a long time away but the way things are going right now I would be the luckiest girl alive to marry him 6 years from now and to spend the rest of my life with him.

Achievements that have so far have accomplished will be graduating from high school, graduating from collage, have a job, buying a home, getting married. My dream is that someday that I would love to achieve is to build my dream house. Ever since I was little I love making up blue prints of what someday my house would be. As it stands right now it is a beautiful cottage log cabin in the middle of the woods. I would start off buying a large amount of land which I have already picked out in Pomfret Ct. If someone owns it I will buy it off of them. I would then hand over my blue print to the professionals as my dream house is brought to life. In order to do this I would put my home up for sale Woodstock and my husband and I will live with my parents until the house is complete. I am figuring this will take a good year until we are all settled in. It will be a two floor house in front of a pond. The home will be consisting of 2 car garage 3bathrooms, 4 bedrooms, laundry room, office, double sided stone fire place, with a shed in the back. On the second floor there will be a balcony looking over into the living room over looking towards the fire place. I will be 24 years old and if I can achieve this dream of mine there will be nothing in life that I could ever dream for.

As far as material possession goes for we will have two cars one for me and one for my husband. We will own our own home created by me. We will have two four wheelers that we take out into our woods out back where we made trails. We will still own our boat and two ski doo’s that we still take out on our old house lake.

As for my very own family I plan to have my first child at now age 24 I plan on having my second child at age 26. They will be two years apart just like my sister and I are. I am hoping for a boy and a girl I would really love both but if I do not get one or the other I will keep trying until I do. I will quit my job to take care of my children when they get older I will think about getting back into work again but I really would love to spend the first 5 years with my children being an at home mother. We will have beautiful dream house to bring them up in with a wonderful school where my sister and I attended. My husband will still work at his job but will be home for dinner every night. I will always keep my children active and will always have them spend time at there grandmas and grandpas house. To keep myself busy I will attend yoga with my sister and craft class with my mother. My dad will bring his pole and go fishing in my back yard when ever he wants and can bring my mother with him as she helps me cook her famous dinners that I wish one day I will be as good as a cook as she is. When the kids get older we will take them to Disney world when the magic is still alive.

I have had so many experiences and I am sure even more that I can’t even think of right now. Some of the experiences that I hope to go thru are graduating, have a job of my dreams that I love, and family trip to Hawaii. Buy my own home, build my dream home, and get married to my soul mate. Have two kids, keep close in touch with my mother, father, and sister. Take my kids o Disney world taking my mother and father with us. As I can see it I just know that my life will be a life to remember and well lived with many goals and experiences to come out. All of my hard work will pay off.

I feel like my life how I want it to be is realistic and also unrealistic. Of course I am going to want the fairy tale life story but I honestly think I will happen I don’t feel like it is too unrealistic, besides the fact that I have no money and I just have really big dreams that money will be hard to buy. Just like in the story The Great Gatsby he thought that money can buy you happiness and what ever you would like. I feel that if I do not get what I want I will not be happy. But is that really the case? Can I still be happy without building my dream home that I have longed for my whole life? At this point I don’t think I can be happy if I don’t have enough money to make me happy but that should not be the case. If I have enough love and a home with food then that should be enough for anyone.

Dreams Blog

For the future, my most prominent goal is to get whatever degrees are necessary, and more, to go into some form of Information Technology career. I am more concerned about enjoying what I do than how much the job pays (although I.T. does have an excellent salary) as our family's money and my subsequent trust funds along with various choices of which house I would like them to purchase for me will, needless to say, be more than sufficient to provide me with a highly enjoyable life. Depending on where I decide to go to college, my primary choice for where to live would still be somewhere in southern California.

As for the things that are further into the future, which I would consider to be dreams at this point, I am fairly certain right now that I would want to have a life on my own. Even if this were to change at some point in my life, I know for a fact that I would never want to raise children of my own.

These "dreams" that I have are completely realistic, unlike our main character Gatsby who reached for things that were beyond his limits and control. The reason that my ideas for the future are so realistic is that I can understand what things are out of reach, and what things aren't. Not too many things are beyond me, however, I doubt that I would go after a married women who I had known years earlier and end up causing some huge fiasco as the main character did.

I'm not really sure what I want to do for my future, I probably want to do what my grandfather does because he does pretty much everything and he also owns half of Brooklyn. He build houses, is a carpenter, tree surgeon, and mechanic. I don;t really want to go to college because I hate school a lot, but if I do I would definitely want to play sports like softball and football, they have football teams for girls. I'm not the type of person that likes to travel, I hate going places. I would like to be married when I'm older, that would be nice.

When I'm older and living on my own I would like a dog or cat, maybe both. I would want a greyhound because I had one named Tails, she died in December of 2008, I loved her so much. I would also like a fat cat because there so fat and huggable, I have a fat cat now named Fat Cat and he's just the best cat ever. I would like to live close to my family when I'm older because I'm so use to everyone being close to where I live now, I live close to my aunts, uncles, grandparents, and cousins.

Future Dreams

         I always dream about my future and I always dream about being successful, having alot of money and having a good life. After high school I want to attend Boston college for Law or Political Science. One day I want to be a really good lawyer that works in a big company in New York.

       I want to live in a big apartment in NYC. I never dreamed about me getting married, because I don't want to get married, maybe this is what I think right now but maybe later who knows... My apartment is going to be designed by a really famous designer and the apartment is going to be black and white, my 2 favorite colors.

       I'm going to travel alot because I love traveling and traveling is going to be my main experience. I want to travel all over the world but mostly in Europe. I want to go to places that i never heard before and beautiful countries with beautiful shores. I want to learn every culture is out there and I think is going to be alot of fun.

       If I get married one day I want to have a huge wedding in the most beautiful city ever Vlora, Alabania, where I was born. I want my future husband to be a lawyer just like me and we are going to be happy and we are going to have 2 kids. I think I'm going to have a really good life because I'm going to have everything that I dream about, and I think that all of my dreams are realistic because I am a great student with really good grades and education is the main thing in my life because is going to help me with my future. This is how I picture my future and this is how I wanted.

      

     

Accomplish

Dreams are things people want to have happen in your life and for most people they will happen, but for some, they won’t. For me, I want them to happen because I find that reaching your dreams will make your life easier. I have many dreams, to graduate high school, to go into the military, get life experience and a degree of my choice, go to Europe and travel to different countries and buy a house.

My first dream is to graduate high school because that’s the first step to accomplishing my other dreams. Graduating high school is important to me because it gives me the education I need to get into the military. It’s a pain in the ass to be at school but sometimes you gotta do what you gotta do.

Getting into the military is another dream of mine that’s second on my list. Its second on my list because it’s a way I can make my other dreams possible. By joining the military I will learn a skill that I can get a college degree for. I want to go in for electronics and computer programming because I find it interesting and enjoyable. I can also sign up to be in the military for a long time if I so choose. Staying in the military for a while can be good for you because you can learn a bunch of different skills that can make it easier to get a good career.

Having a career I love by getting my skill of choice is third on my list of dreams. It’s third on my list because it will make it easy for me to make money since I want to go in a high paying field of work. Having money will make life easier because things I need like a house and car. Having little or no worries about money is a great feeling. This was I can travel to a lot of places.

I want to travel to Europe and go to a bunch of countries starting with Wales, then Holland and England, and several more. I like traveling because I have friends all over the world. I have friends in 8 or so countries and I’d like to be able to visit them. Then come home to a nice house.

The last dream of mine is to own a house. I’d like to have my own house because it will give me privacy. Having a house will be nice if I get married or something. Maybe have a friend sleep over and throw some barbecues and parties.

"There are some people who live in a dream world, and there are some who face reality; and then there are those who turn one into the other.”

I have a job dream and also a family and a house dream. I don’t know if it’ll actually happen but I believe that it will. My job dream is to be a veterinarian. I would like that job because I absolutely love animals. I would be able to take care of all the animals that I want. Even though I would have to take science classes in collage but it’s totally worth it. If that job won’t happen, I plan I still working where I work now, which is a housekeeper at the Woodstock Inn. You might think it’s not awesome, but it actually is. It’s also fun. While me and whoever else is working, we’re able to watch T.V and listen to the music channel.

My dream house is pretty sweet too. Well of course I plan on getting married and having, probably, the most, two kids. My dreams house is a blue house not too big and not too small with a front and a back yard, so the kids can play together. I also want to have a garden and grow vegetables so we can just get the vegetables from there and not the store. Well at least till the winter. Also, I want a farm with pigs and name two of them babe (from the movie Babe), and the other pig name Wilber (from the book Charlotte’s Web). I also want to get some horses, sheep’s, chickens, no roster because they’re really annoying.

To tell you the truth I thought Gatsby’s dreams were realistic. I mean part of his was to basically get back with Daisy and marry her. That was going to happen, till Tom was being stupid and also told Mr. Wilson the truth about whose car it was. I believe my dreams are also realistic because I all I got to do is get a good job were they pay good money, and then I should be all set from there.

Dreams blog

My dreams for the future include taking online classes for QVCC my senior year if I can. Then after I graduate from the Academy I would go to QVCC for either one or two more years depending on if I end up takinng the online courses next year. At QVCC I would take classes to support the education I need to be some sort of therapist, either a physical or massage therapist, or one that works with little children. After I graduate from there I would take some time in between to work and get ready for what may happen in my life in the future. I would like to work at a restraunt; waitressing. I would like to do a little traveling either for education or before I start school again. I would like to travel to Europe, Greece, Ireland, and Italy. I would also like to attend Uconn or New England Tech for therapy. By then I may find a different school offering courses for therapy and beable to travel while receiving an education.

During all of these experiences it would be great to meet all sorts of different people from different back grounds and life styles. I would find a place to live, like an apartment, with either roommates or boyfriend. This apartment would ahave to be near my school or in between the school I'm attending and the school of my boyfriend's. By then I hope I'll have a car and we"ll beable to commute between home, school, and the appartment. I hope to have experiences that I will either remember for the rest of my life or that will change my life.

I hope my future holds a great education, job, and memories that will last me a life time. I believe my dreams are realistic. Unlike gatsby's dreams, my dreams don't revolve around one certain person im my life. Some dreams of mine might seem unrealistic right now, but I won't know until the time comes. The dreams of traveling to all those wonderful places all depend on how much money I have to spend, my living and relationship status, and how much schooling and work I have.Like Gatsby's dreams of getting back with Daisy, my dreams and future could change drastically at anytime.

The goal in the future

my dream for the future is to in college to have better uducation. I wants to be a sport medicine. I wants to graduate in the university of Connecticut. The most importants for me is to be with my family. Family is so important wiyhout them life is not fun. I wants to help them to have a better education too.

I wants to visit chana because I think chana is a beatiful country to see. learn the colture of them because every country has different colture. I want to visit Spain, Argentina, and Brasil because Ithink is interesting to hear their language. every country speaks differents even they speaks Spanish but hte tone is different from other country.

I wants to buy a house in los Angeles California and live there. One thing I like about California has good the weather, does get to hot or to cold is just fresh to relax.

I think my drem are realistic because I think that every things are possible to happen. Like Gatsby got the house he wanted, the car, and he almos got the woman he loves.

Dr3am

My biggest dream for my future is to become a chef. I want to graduate from here and either go to Johnson and Wales, or Lincoln Culinary Institute (LCI). This dream is realistic because I have been working in a restaurant for 7 months now, I've learned the basics on proper food handling and dealing with people and not flipping out on them. Starting out early is a good start to reach your goal.








I want to be able to start my own restaurant and go big with that. Maybe travel to different parts of the country to begin branching the restaurant and making it well known. I'm really hoping my future holds a lot, become decently wealthy and respected for what I want to become.






If things do go my way and I become wealthy I want to stay in New England and not move anywhere else, I would like to have a dencent size house, nothing to big, maybe somewhere around 30 acres of land to settle on, I would like to have another dog I'd prefer to have a saint bernard bull mastiff mix, like they dog i have now. I'd like to have two to three cars, i want to own a nice porsche or one of those new challangers. After working for five years I would like tot to settle down and start a family, but I will also help my other family if they are having problems with money or a home. I have been supported by many family members and I want to be able to pay them back for everything they have done for me, not just family but my close friends too. Becoming a chef is my biggest dream I have and I hope it comes true.

my dream

I would say the things i'd like to be most right now are artist or writer.Or a programmer at an anime gaming genra company like Square Enix. Other then anime theres only a few things that interest my. Food and sleep are some of them, the last is women, and i already have a very secure happy relationshipp with one so that one is irrelevent at the present time. So yes being an anime artist would have to be my ultimate goal for the future. In fact in history we have an assignment to create a cover for an article for "Time" magazine about the person of the 1900's who would win person of the century. I chose a character from my favorite show "Naruto".

The characters name is Sasuke Uchiha, and on the cover i drew him using only a mechanicle pencil(my favorite tool for drawing anything) and it's the best drawing iv ever done in my opinion. The pictures attached are examples of animaters characters that they have made up and that i love.

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My dreams about the future include me still living in ether Connecticut, Rhode island, or Massachusetts. I am also going to own a house in California inside the Emerald Triangle that I would travel down to at least twice a year. No matter where I live, I want a large house with a decent amount of land, no close neighbors, tall trees, and a long driveway, so the house isn't visible from the road. In the state that my main house is in, I plan on working in or owning a tattoo parlor, a glass blowing company, or both. Hopefully by this point I'm already married to Jess Jarrett. I am going to have a lot of valuables in my house. I would like to have a large gun safe, with everything from a .22 hand gun, to a 33 mouser inside it. I will still be an hunter and fisherman.

I am also going to have a lot of large animal pets. Great Danes, Newfoundlands, German Sheppard's, pit bulls, Rottweiler's, mastiffs, or any combination. I plan on having some large snakes like boa constrictors, or cobras. And I am going to have a large tamed bear kept on a heavy duty chain in my front yard for intimidation purposes. I will have a big speed boat and I will be driving a large four wheel drive diesel truck with a v8 engine.

I will hopefully also have a large barn in my back yard that can be my workshop, with all kinds of tools from a drill press and a vice, to a hydraulic lift, and an arc welder. With that I can do all the work to my vehicles myself, without having to pay an extremely overpriced mechanic to do the work for me and possibly mess it up anyway. I also want a big in ground pool, and a two or three car garage.

I would like to invest in wind powered energy as well. I would like my back yard to be a wind farm, that way I have free electricity and instead of paying for it, I could possibly get payed for it. If there is enough money in my budget, I will have a bomb shelter put in beneath my house with a heavy duty generator, as well, just in case the world ends.

What are your dreams for the furture?

When I get older my dream is to become a lawyer, ever since I was little I would always change what I wanted to be but ever since 6th grade my dream has been to be a lawyer and it hasn’t changed. I think I would make a good lawyer because I always win my arguments , and I can always back up what I have to say. In history class when we have debates I always go good and have good points to say, and I love knowing what is going on in the crime world. I want to be on of the top lawyers that make a lot of money and that our own for being good lawyer that everyone want to hirer. I feel if I kept wanting to do this and get my grades up a little bit more I might be able to for fill my dream

I know that I will take a lot of hard work and time to make this come true, it going to take a lot of money and collage time to get to where I have to be but my dad said he would support me all the way, just so I can do what I want to do and not end up being bored in life. I do think my dream is realistic for people but I do not think it is realistic for me because my grades are not the best, and you need to be really good in school, for colleges in that degree to even look at you. I am going to try my best and who knows by the time I am in college my dream can change but at this point this is what I want to be and what I am going to work for. Whatever happens if I am a lawyer in the future or not I want to be able to support my family, my kids, my parents if they need it. I want to be able to have money so I can help them out and get them what they want. Over all I just want to be successful.

dreamsss..

My future dreams are after highschool to go to a tech school and get certified in automotive and high performance engine modification so one day I can hopfully open my own garage someday and have a place to work on my dream cars and build 7 seccond drag cars. If i succeed in doing this i'll most likly be one of the happiest people youll ever meet id probally travel to the dry lake bed in nevada to see how fast I could get my fastest car to travel and such. I wanna have family eventually but not soon what so ever. I also hope to have a private garage where I would restore old school muscle cars and turn them for profit like I some times do in my spare time now. I think that this is very realiastic because I dont know anything else and I dont want to do anything other than this, and my goal before i die is to build a car that can wheel stand.

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In the future I hope to be a nurse. I want to do a two year program to get my nursing degree. I want to go through school, hopefully getting A's and B's. Personally, I love helping people, and I feel that being a nuse will help me do that. Not only that, but being a nuse is a good job, becuase no matter where you go, hospitals are all over the place.

I want to have a nice apartment, or maybe even a small house, in the woods. I love where I live now, and I could never live in a big city, too many people for me. I really don't know what I would want for a relationship in the future. I feel like relationships are too complicated sometimes, but who know's. And as far as kids go, I love kids, but if im just getting out of school, and starting a job, kids wouldn't be on my mind. So later in life, like around the age of 28-30 i would love to have 4 kids. In the future, i really don't want to have to worry about money, or bills, so i really hope that i have a good job, and i save my money well.

I feel that most of my dreams are realistic, but no one know's what the future will bring. School should be pretty easy, just the coast of school worries me. And as far as an apartment, or house, I would need a job first, and Im sure I wouldn't be alone, me and my friend's have talked about moving in together, which would be pretty fun. I think all of ny dreams, could come true, but it all depends on me, and how I choose to live my life. (:

Future?.

For my future I would like to simply be happy, live in a decent house, with a job I enjoy doing, with 4 kids. I do not want to be married in the future, because so many of them now a days do not work out, and it is just so much drama when they don't work out, and it just ends up hurting the kids that are involved, as I know first hand being the child of divorced parents. Plus marriage just consists of some rings, new titles, and sharing everything you have with someone that could change their mind about you, and take everything. I don't think you need to be married to love someone, and marriage doesn't prove your love at all.

For my future I hope that I do not become dependent on material things, and raise kids to just appreciate what they have, and to just be good kind people. Growing up I haven't had as nice toys, clothes, houses, or as much money as many of my friends,but I've grown to live with it and want better for the kids that I want to have in the future. My life has been tough, dealing with divorced parents, going from house to house, living with an alcoholic step dad, moving, all the yelling and fight, and much more, but I'm determined to not let any of my past hold me back in the future.

It may sound crazy but I don't think having a lot of money would make me happy, like there would be no satisfaction in anything, and I know I would let money get to my head. Yeah, money might keep you happy when you buy nice things, have nice cars, have a grand house, but if all you rely on is money to keep you happy then you won't truly be happy, cause at the end of the day you'll be all alone with nothing but money, and money can't talk when you need someone to talk to.

I'm still in high school and have no idea what I want to do in the future, career wise that is. Iv thought about a couple things like being a nurse, or preschool teacher because I love little kids, but I still have no clue. I mean after all I have my whole life ahead of me to decide, why rush and choose now?

Although I don't want to be married in the future, I do want to be with a guy for a long time. So instead of having a husband I guess you can say I just want a life partner. Someone that will stand by my side, and never leave, that will always love me with all my faults, and will never want me any other way.

I don't think my goals for the future are unrealistic, all I truly want in life is to be happy, and if that's asking to much, then I guess that's a problem. What the future holds is still a mystery and full of questions but I'll take my time answer them. (:

My dreams for the futrue are to travel and see alot of the world. I think that it would be alot of fun to see the world and go to different counrtys. I would want live in ct still because I really like it here. I would like to go to college and get a good education and have a nice house and nice things. Before I decide what I know what I actually want to do I would like to try new thinga and go lots of places and have fun.

I think that my dreams are pretty realistic. I dont think my dreams are un realistic because I dont think that they are anything to special. I dont have any plans on living in a huge mansion or being a millionare I just want kind of an average life I think. I dont really know what I would like to do for a career yet or anything like that. I would like to live close to all my family because if

I didnt I would miss them to much and i would like them to be around incase I ever needed help or something.

My dreams

I dream of eventually having my own private library filled with hundreds of books, including all of my favorites. My library would include a lounge area where I could go to read or just to relax. There would be a couple of recliners. I would also include a table and a computer in the library so I could do whatever work I need to do in the quiet of my own library. It would be where I could go to be alone and get some peace and quiet. I would only let the people who I knew would treat my books right use it. I wouldn't want my books to be ruined, especially not my favorites. I know this is'nt a realistic dream, but it would be nice to have a private library, considering I'm so into reading.

When I'm a little older, I want to work with children. I love kids and I get along quite well with them. I'm not sure exactly what I want to do with them yet, though. I think I'm leaning more towards daycare. I could open up a daycare center, but I don't really know yet if I want to. All I really know for certain is that I enjoy being around kids and I want to do something with them. This has been my dream for a few years now, ever since I realized I'll never be able to work with animals because I'm really allergic to most of them. I think working with children is a very realistic dream.

In the future I generally just want to live a happy, and somewhat successful life. After I graduate and go to college, I would ideally like to work for a magazine, or something like that. I'd really enjoy taking pictures for maybe a music magazine like "Fader". I'd also want a job on the side, so I could afford to travel, and actually go to the places I've always wanted to.

I just want a stress free life. After high school, I hope to start college in the fall. And once I'm in college I can see myself being solitary. I would cut off almost all the relationships I have, other than a few people. Meeting new people constantly but not making an effort to maintain a friendship is a phase I would most likely go through. I am completely okay with that, though.

Also, one thing that is very important to me is that I actually achieve this. That I do what I want to do after high school. Neither of my parents did, and I feel bad for them. When I'm older I don't want to feel any self pity, and I definitely don't want anyone to feel sorry for me. I don't want to forget the things I truly loved. I have the opportunity to achieve my ideal life.

My dreams are a lot different from Gatsby's dreams. His were more romantic, and he didn't really have any idea where things were headed. I have control over my dreams, there really isn't why I couldn't achieve them. I know I can as long as I have the motivation and try. It was almost impossible for Gatsby to achieve his dreams, though. They depended on Daisy, and whether she wanted to be with him or not. I think most of his dreams were irrational and most definitely unrealistic.

Of course some of my dreams for the future are going to be unrealistic, like taking pictures for a fashion magazine or a music magazine. But I honestly think anything is possible. It depends on how hard I try and how serious I am about it. I might end up changing my mind after awhile but I'd rather waste my time trying to get somewhere, than waste my time doing nothing and thinking about where I should start.

southern Louisiana bro

I have a lot of high hopes for the future and I hope to accomplish at least of couple. My first dream is to go to college and play either football or baseball there. It has always been a dream for me to play college ball in front of hundreds of cheering fans. Also a lot of people say they would like to own a really big house on the beach. But me, I just want a really small house on the beach. Even if it’s a trailer park I wouldnt mind it a lot as long as I was within walking distance of the beach. But to be exact the place I want to be when I’m older is southern Louisiana. I have no idea why, it just seems like the place where real Americans would be.
My first dream for the future is no doubt being able to play college ball for whatever school I end up going to. For as long as I can remember going down the high way in Worchester and going by their beautiful baseball park right next to their football field and saying to myself, “ that’s where I want to play someday.” This dream will probably never happen in a million years but I don’t care I can still chase and see what happens. Maybe I’ll play baseball for a smaller college but I would just be happy to play.
My second dream is to live in a trailer near the ocean. My child hood was pretty much going to the ocean every day of the summer. I don’t really go near the ocean so much anymore and I really miss it. Which is why it would be really nice to someday own a house on the ocean to bring back old childhood memories like walking to the beach from my grandparent’s house in Rhode Island.
My final dream is to at least own a house down in the deep bayous of southern Louisiana. I have always felt like Louisiana is the place for me because of how the people are, the wild life, and the views. This may sound weird to you but I think it would be so cool to wake up in the morning to a gator chilling on my porch. Also if you have never been in the south the people are a lot nicer in the south. It kind of makes northerners seem very rude. Up here you can’t drive down the high way without Massachusetts drivers passing from the right and cutting you off. Down in the south everyone is very polite and there are very few ‘massholes.’ This is the way it should be.

Dreams

Hello, world! We will be back from our blogging break tomorrow in class. Students will be posting about their dreams. We just finished reading The Great Gatsby, so it will be a good time for us to reflect on our hopes and wishes for the future. Do you have impossible dreams, like Gatsby? Or are yours more realistic?

Each blogger will also include a picture that symbolizes his or her dreams.

Quote Response Entry

The quote that Tobias Wolff included in the beginning of the book is a very insightful one. No matter what anyone may claim, the majority of people, at some point, have changed a part of their behavior in the presence of another in order to be better be accepted by them or a group of others. Some people, such as myself, are used to having a pose they uphold all day in public in order to not be treated with indifference due to the high level at which my family and I stand financially. However, others are only familiar with changing around their friends temporarily in order to feel more understood. Reasons for doing this vary from wanting to be accepted in a group, to a number of other things.

 Regardless of the reason, the bottom line is that everyone knows what this is like, and to better understand how Toby lives out the majority of his life, we simply have to imagine putting on a pose at a constant rate, whenever in the presence of friends or classmates. This is no healthy to carry out one’s life, and realizing what Toby went through makes it all the more easy to sympathize with him.

I don't really know if I "assume a pose," I basically act the same around everyone. Well I guess not exactly the same. When I'm at school and home, yeah I'm always rewally hyper and i act myself, but with certain people my personality is different. If the person or people aren't my friends and i don't talk to them and they want to start talking to me, then I wont't be as hyper. I'll probably start pretending I'm shy, and make them think I'm mature, and that I don't act up at all. But, right when I'm at the point where I'm like "ok this person really wants to be my friend," it's time to start acting like myself. If they don't like the real me, then. they can just, well, leave me alone.

But the one friend I am completely myself around, would be my best friend Kaycee. When me and her are together and we hang out at either her house or my house. people would want to like glue our mouths, tie us up, put us in a box, and ship us somewhere because we would be really loud and annoying, but we wouldn't care. Her and I aren't just best friends, we're also like sisters. We do have arguements like sisters but towards the end, we just forget about the fight and we'll be all hypered up agian.

I'm also my self around, of course, my familr because they are my family and they should love me just the way I am. My family and I (especially my mom and I) joke around alot. More of me and my mom because I'm closer to her. We'll joke around, yell at each other on purpise, say the one of us is grounded and tell each other to go to our roomd. We'll also say that we can't go to work for the heck of it.

"The first duty in life is to assume a pose. What the second is, no one has yet discovered." - Oscar Wilde

In life, everyone puts on their own sort of facade. No matter it be in front of teachers, parents, or a group of peers. We all have our own ways of not being our true selves, and as long as you know who you are, it doesn't matter. For example, I obviously don't show my teachers who I really am. They have no idea what I do for extracurricular activities, and know nothing about my personality. To teachers, I act respectful, and do what I'm obligated to do (most of the time). Certain instances cause me to lash out, and sometimes even be rude, but it's only when someone has offended me in a way, or in my eyes didn't treat me right. If you treat me with respect, I'll treat you with respect and vice versa. If someone doesn't come at me with a kind approach, then don't expect one back from me.

In front of my friends, or anyone that is around my age group, I'm usually always myself. But "myself" isn't always the same. Sometimes I love to be obnoxious, and loud, and I like to make people laugh and get excited. Other times I can be quiet, and not want to see anyone, or even acknowledge them. I feel like people can tell the way I'm feeling, because it's obvious if I'm in one of my quiet moods.

I don't act differently around different groups of people at all, though. I'm friends with anyone that's willing to be friends with me, and if they're not willing, then I won't make the slightest attempt at acknowledging their existence. If you don't like me, then I don't care about you (not like I would otherwise). I guarantee there are people all around me that think I'm the most annoying, immature, dumbest etc. person that they have ever met, but that's is because that is the only side of me they have seen. I don't change my personality depending on what other people think. It changes it's self when that's the way that I'm feeling.

People think of me as being a funny guy, or class clown and most of the time that's true, but no one really knows the intellectual side of me. People think I'm unintelligent because I act like an imbecile, but that really isn't the case. If someone strikes up a conversation that interests me, or I have knowledge of the topic, you could get me talking for and endless amount of time, to the point where you're completely uninterested. Not many people see this side of me, because I don't show it often. It's not because I'm trying to hide it, but because people don't have what it takes to get it out of me. I feel as if some people couldn't handle that, or think I'm a nutso for being that way. That could make me stubborn, or naive in a way, but it's the way I feel.

When it comes to my parents, they really know nothing about me, or the way i think. I've tried to open up to my mother about my points of view, and the way I feel about life in general, and she shuts down my opinions and feelings, as if they were incorrect. It really gets me heated, because she thinks that her way is the only way that's right. I've never discussed with her my feelings about this, but I don't feel like I need to. Don't get me wrong, she's a great mother and gives me everything she can, materialistic and otherwise, but she just doesn't know me.

As far as my stepdad goes, he's just an asshole. There isn't a single good thing I could say about him, other than the fact that he makes my mom "happy". I think it's hilarious that she's married to the guy, because neither one of them are happy. They both work incredibly hard to have what they do, and they come home and are miserable. Why should they do that? Why should anyone do that? They think having a nice home, and a big television, with $40,000 cars is what happiness is, and it's ridiculous. I don't ever want to be like them. I'd rather be living on the streets, honestly. All the hard work doesn't matter if deep down you aren't happy.

Oh wow, i just went on a pointless tangent. Anyway, my stepdad and I are the farthest thing from close. I come home, he'll be sitting on the couch on his computer, we make eye contact, I say, "sup?" and I go in my room. That is the highlight of our relationship. It doesn't exist, and that's the way I want to keep it. I hate the man more than anything in this world, and I don't really see how I couldn't. Personally, I feel that anyone who tries to come into your life, and essentially replace one the people that played a huge role in your childhood, doesn't deserve to be loved or wanted, especially since he's a rude, cold, awful man to begin with.

I love my dad more than most things, but I haven't seen him since the weekend before Easter. He lives in Webster, MA, and we both just have busy lives that go against each other. He works all the time, and has a girlfriend (that is actually really nice), and we just don't schedule each other in. I don't do anything important that stops me from seeing him, but I'm always busy with friends, and I don't like to give that up. That really is completely selfish of me, because I know he misses me as much as I miss him, probably more. I don't like to take my free time for granted, but I know i should stop taking my dad for granted, because he won't always be here.

But back to the main topic again, my parents just don't know me. None of them know what I do, or who I do it with, or where I am. I don't feel the need to tell them, because it's not their business. I'm going to do what I want, no matter what, and I don't see why that should be a problem. Honestly, nothing I do should affect them, unless they let it. Obviously it does affect them, because they "care", but they shouldn't, because I'll be fine, with or without their direction. I appreciate everything they've ever gave me, or helped me with, but I don't need it. I would be fine on my own.

When I'm talking about my "parents", I mean my mom and stepdad, because my dad hasn't really played the parent role, seeing since I don't live with him, or see him often at all. He has always been more of my best friend, because when I see him we just have a good time, and I like my relationship with him, much better than me and my mother's.

But in reality, I don't even know how to answer the question: who do you show your "true" self to? I guess I show it to everyone, because I'm always being who I am. Whether it be my funny side, or my serious side, I'm never putting on an act. I express my feelings, and the way I come across depends on them. I'm not saying everyone knows me, because I don't really even "know" myself. All that I'm saying is that what you see is what you get, and you won't ever see me being something I'm not.

Pose.

In life I do assume a pose. And that pose is what has created me. My personality is different when I am at home compared to how I act at school, but doesn’t everyone? For the most part I am a very quiet person, very calm, and understanding. When I am at school I like to stay quiet and focus on my work. When I am with my friends at school I like to have fun, laugh and show affection towards them but not the same way of how we act outside of school.
In school I feel that we have a responsibility to be someone who we truly aren’t deep down inside. For the most part people like to hide their true personality because they are afraid to be their self around others. Everyone wants to fit in. So in order to fit in they become someone who they aren’t.

My personality changes depending on who I am with. If I am with my sister I am talkative and state my feelings strongly. If I disagree with her or mad at her I am not afraid to tell her otherwise. When I am with my mom or dad I am respectful and do what I am obligated to do. I still have responsibilities but I feel safe and relaxed around them. My language changes when I am with my parents compared to when I am with my friends. When I am with my boyfriend I am loving, caring, and will do anything for him. I am calm for the most part and always put him and his feelings before mine. When I am with my girl friends I feel like I can be more outgoing and can express myself differently then when I am with my boyfriend. I wouldn’t sing Taylor Swift and do nails with my boyfriend. So when I am with him I drop the whole girly talk type of subjects. So it is very true that when I am with different people I am a different person.

I feel that I can show my true personality when I am with my sister. I am also at home when I act this way. When I am with her I feel that I am able to talk to her about everything. Even though I am the older sister and she should be the one coming to me for advice it is the other way around with us. I always go to her for everything and feel free to talk to her about anything. She might not always know what to say to me when I am stuck in situations but she’s always there. I am a lot more out going with her I am not afraid to tell her off. This is because she is my other half, we are extremely close and practically twins, just she’s the better half.

I feel that if we were all our self and talked to people how we really wanted to talk to them, and was not afraid to be our selves in front of others then there would most likely be more drama but maybe people might be happier. But no matter what when our surroundings change so do we.

Just be yourself...

        My mom always says to me, "Never lie about yourself, because if you do then you don't know who you are anymore". I don't have to show a fake personality to people. If they don't like me for who I am then I don't have to like them for who they are. I am who I am, a really nice, caring and generous person, who's proud of her achievements and for showing a great personality everywhere.

        But nobody knows the real me. My parents think they know me but they don't, no one knows the true me the feelings that I have inside or what I think about my life or what I want, what I need or what I love.  I don't really like to talk about my private life or show everybody what I think or what I want in life. Well we are writing a memoir here, we have to express our true feelings and what we have been experienced in our life.

        My parents think that I am so happy for leaving the house and going to college. Well actually I'm not, but they don't know that, because I always say to them, "Can't wait to be on my own" well that's a lie. I want to show them that I am not afraid to grow up and leave the house and be on my own, but I don't think I'm ready for this. I love them so much and for me being away from them it will be really hard for me to handle. I don't want to grow up and live and support myself, but that's life, sometimes you don't have any other choices.        
      
        I show my true self to... I will say myself because I'm the only one that knows about me. I'm the only one that knows the dreams that I have for the present and the future.
     
        That's just me, the true me and I would never change myself because I love who I am and I think everybody should do the same.
  

      

Ain't Fake

          In my life I don't really assume a pose around my friends or anyone for that matter. I can't imagine not being myself, I mean, why pretend? Pretending to be someone your not or saying you do things you don't to people just to fit in isn't right. I hang out with people like me, people who don't judge, my friends. I have to come to the point where I don't care what people think about me. Letting other peoples opinion of you, get to you, is absurd. Why should someone else's opinion matter if you're happy the way you are? if you're not happy the way you are, then that's a different story.
          I don't pose around my friends. I always show my true self around them. I shouldn't have to hide who I really am just to make friends, that's ludicrous. I do things that some people won't and don't agree with, but that doesn't bother me knowing that the people I'm friends with don't judge me. When you have real friends who don't judge, its pretty nice knowing that they won't want you to change to someone you're not. It's a nice feeling being accepted for you are. I advise some people to try it.
          Not being who I am seems like the most senseless thing I could possibly do. I understand that being myself agitates some people, but that's their own problem. When people judge you for who you are, they are lowering themselves for thinking less of someone. Trying to pose and fit someone elses standards is a very fatuous thing to do.
          Be happy with who you are. You are you, no one else; don't try to be. If you pretend to be someone else, you won't be as happy as you would be being yourself. if you get caught posing, the people you tried to please, won't be your "friends". You are unique the way you are and changing that means your not true to yourself. In my opinion, I find its kind of demeaning.

How I Am

When I’m around people I don’t know I’m really shy and I stay quiet. I’ve always been that way since I was little. Especially in a class with a lot of students; I just don’t talk, but if I’m in a class with not a lot of students I can be somewhat loud and on occasion the class clown. I just feel comfortable with few students. If there is a class I have with one of my best friends and it’s a big class I might also be loud in there. I hate being in a big class without a best friend because it gets really boring and I might fall asleep. When I’m with my best friends I can get loud and maybe a little crazy, but not too crazy. I feel like when I’m around my friends I can be myself and not so shy.

I never lie to get friends or anything; I tell them the truth. If I were to lie I would feel so bad, that’s the way I was raised to not lie and tell the truth. I just feel horrible if I was to lie and I don’t know why it’s the guilt I guess. It’s all because I go to church every week and I went to CCD for 7 years, they must have made me this way I guess. When I’m with my brothers though yeah I get rough, but that’s the way everyone is with their brother(s). I’m the same way I am with my friends when I’m with my brothers.

Blog # 2

Personally, I think that everyone changes in some way around the people they are haning around with. Not nesesaraly in a bad way, but the way they act, or behave might change. I know that when I am around my friends I act differently then I do when I am with my family. When I am with my family I am not as hyper, and loud, I also choose different words when I am with my family. When I am hanging out with friends I swear every now and then, but at home I know I would get yelled at for swearing. When I am around my family I am much more respectful then when I am with my friends. Not that I'm disrespectful, but I'm not so routy when I'm with a family member.



I also change depending on the family member I'm with, like if its my Mom then I know I can fool around and have a good time, same thing with my Step Dad, and brothers and sister. But when I am with my Dad, I am quiet becuase he has more of an uptight vibe to him. He is the kind of Dad that lives and breaths church, and pesonally I am not like that. Everyone changes around the people they are with, weather they know it or not. Maybe not in a bad way, but there is change. I know I do anyway.

Blog #2

The question is do I assume a pose... i'd say yea I do act somewhat different around people if I don't know you i'll be shy but once I get to know you I open up. I've always been like that my whole life and I could really only be myself around people I can trust and people that trust me. Like my friend alex I could do almost anything and it be alright good or bad. I'm pretty sure same goes for him I could ask him anything and say anything to him and it wouldn't matter he would have my back which is pretty cool.

If I acted the way I really am around my parents they would disown me 100% I dont doubt that at all so oviously I act as the good innocent kid that im deffinetily not but I guess i gotta do what I gotta do. I feel like I do this is because if I act myself around certain people they'll take it wrong and judge to harshly but if they new me they wouldn't care kinda. hard to explain but yea thats me.

Blog Entry #2

I don't think I assume a pose in my life. Most of the time I am either very quite or a little talkative. That's usually how I act throughout the whole day. Sometimes when I am with my good close friends I act differently, obviously, than when i'm with people who I don't really know. I feel much more comfortable with them compared to with the people I hardly know. When I am with my parents I also act differently in some ways. I lie to them to make them feel like I don't do much wrong when I usually do. So basically my good friends know me a lot better than my parents do.

I also act somewhat different when I am with certain groups of friends. Sometimes I would act like I was the best and other times I would act like i'm wicked funny. I also act like i'm really smart, like when I talk to girls, but I really don't really know much about anything besides sports, music, etc.

I show my true self to my really close friends. Such as Jake, Tyler, Cassie, and some others. I show them because I really trust them and I have a lot of confidential stuff that they know. They also express themselves to me so it would be appropriate to express myself to them. If I am going to tell them my secrets then trust, honesty, and responsibility would be needed and that's what they have and I know they wouldn't do anything to hurt me and I would do the same.

I really don’t act different around everyone, I mean it depends what we are doing and what mood I am in that affects my attitude. But I’m more comfortable around so friends then I do the others. One place I might act different would be when I am meaning someone for the first time, I am not going to act like I do with my other friends because I don’t know them that well and maybe they are different then my other friends. Also I act different in the class room, in the class room I don’t really talk that much, I mostly just sit back and listen to everyone else and don’t really say much but that’s the way I like it. Meeting someone’s parents for the first time, I act different because I want them to like me and respect me; I defiantly can’t act like myself in front of them the first couple of times. It takes me a while to warm up to parents.

After all these years though I got to learn if people don’t like you for you then they are not worth your time and that what I have been sticking to my high school life, friends will come and go and the only real true ones will stay, so don’t change yourself for a person or a group to like you. Be friends with people who don’t care what your how you look, they are friends with you because you are you. As you go though your high school year you will beable to pick out the fake people in your school/classes. Those kind of people just want to be friends with everyone, or look popular. High school isn't all about that, it may seem like it but half the people you talk to now you won't talk to after your high shcool years because they are fake people. They probably talk behide almost everyone of their"friends". Just be yourself and people will like you for you.

Quotation Blog

"The first duty in life is to assume a pose. What the second is, no one has yet discovered." -Oscar Wilde

The question do I "assume a pose" im not to sure, I may when im with my friends but im a lot different with family.

When people first start high school they try to get that good image to fit in and be classified as "cool". I cam from a small school and we were very pampered and didn't know much because nothing high school came into our lives in Pomfret. Our school was built of pre-k up to 8th grade. People had their own clicks but mostly everyone was friends, we had a class of around 70 people.

When I first started high school the only people I knew were the students from my town. The biggest step I took Freshman year was running for Class Treasurer and won unopposed. I met a pretty cool kid freshman year, I had fundamentals of technology with him and I also had freshman science with him. During that semester him an I got in some serious trouble during tech. We would help each other out with the work, he would do an assignment and attach my name to it and print it out, I did that for him also. I was never a real trouble maker in middle school so I thought it would be cool to do something that is risky and could get me into serious trouble. Well one day we walked into class and our work folders were missing and Mr. Fasula had them in his hand and he brought us into the hall way to talk to us. He told us that he had no choice but to write us up, and we were sent down to Mr. Grossman. We had letters sent out to our parents and had to serve a 2-hour detention and also had to write a 3 page essay stating why integrity is wrong.

Some people do this all the time not just like tech class but to try new things to seem cool for the people around them. Peer pressure plays a huge role into this, experienced kids try to influence younger people to try smoking pot or drinking alcohol, and if the kid doesn't want to do it he would be harassed about it and treated like crap about not being man enough to do it. Also some kids that want to fit in act different than who they really are, and their real friends notice that and walk away from them as if they don't know them.

I guess I do sort of act differently at home than when I am at school, with friends, or with my boyfriend. I don't want everyone to see me acting sort of like a tomboy- cooing over worms (I think they are cute- please don't ask me why because I don't know), trying to burp louder than my mom occationally, ect. I am more polite to people when I am not at home, but not by much. I'm not saying I'm usually rude to my parents because that's not true, but I do say more of what's on my mind to them. I know at least one of my teachers thinks I can do no wrong, partly because I am so obedient in class, but that's not true. I'm not perfect; I just do what I'm supposed to at school- I do my work, pay attention in class, stay out of trouble, and I'm not rude to my teachers.



I only show my 'true' self to my parents, my brother, and my boyfriend because I feel the most comfortable around them. I can tell them almost anything and they wouldn't judge me for it. Well, my brother would judge me, but I don't really care about that. Brothers do that. I do think it's kind of pathetic I won't even show my 'true' self to my best friend, though, but she is so dramatic about everything and I think she'd laugh at me if I told her some stuff. She has laughed at me before.

What pose?

To be honest I don't feel like I pose for anyone at all. Not even my girlfriend or my parents or the so called cool kids at school that are actualy the biggest idiots in the schoool. If someone insults my real friends then I tell them straight up to never say that when I can hear again. before this year I only had 3 real friends that I could trust, this year theres a few more joinging the group, incuding mine and 2 of my friends girlfriends.

Plus a few other guys that we've really found alot in common with, but anyway. The core of our group is that we really just love having fun, doing pretty much anything whenever we feel like it, and the best part is that none of us thinks that having fun means getting waisted or high then going off and having sex. We play wiffle ball we sit arond and play video games go swimming of jump on the trampoline, and the occational mapping of our backyards which are all totaly dense forest. We could find anything to do with a couple of nerf guns xD.

And i'm the same way everywhere except unfortunately during this class because we are required to read the worst books ever and if I dont have my music on i'll just fall right to sleep. I think this class is the only I change but i dont know that it's a mask I think its just a different emotion on display. Alot of people always notice that i'm lip singing along with my music and that i'm totaly obsessed with my hair, that isn't a mask either. I'm always worrying about my hair and I just cant help but sing along because I know them all by heart and it just makes me feel better to sing along, its more enjoyable. So no I do not strike a pose, atleast not yet I don't. I have no reason to. If you dont like me then suck it up and deal cus this is all your getting out of me ^.~

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I do not believe that i put on a different personality around different people. I enjoy being myself around everyone and yes, I do have haters but it doesn't bother me. I don't want to change myself to fit in with other people. Me and my good friends are all very much alike which is why we hang out all the time. We can easily get along with each other just by being ourselves. Which is great because i can show my true self to all of them and not be thinking "am I being a complete idiot right now?" One thing i enjoy about this school is how we have all the sending schools. whats cool about that is how after going to middle school with the same kids for 8 years I can watch them take on different personalities with their new friends in high school. I just enjoy watching them put on a show and knowing how fake they are being because i know the real person behind the fake one trying to hard to be cool.
Don't get me wrong everyone changes a little bit when they get to high school, but there are some kids who change every last bit of them and its like they died and left to be replaced by some poser kid. Since middle school I still listen to the same music, same friends with some added, same personality, and the same style. You might be thinking now that I'm just scared of change or something. but I'm not, I just enjoy being myself. I can easily get along with people like me who don't change so that they can be with the latest trends or like that cool kid they saw on TV last night. but the fake kids who change personalities from group to group I usually don't get along with at all and I think I'm pretty good at seeing through people who are fake. I'm friends with lots of people from different social groups and I can show the real me to all of them because of the simple fact that I feel comfortable with myself around all of them. I just don't feel comfortable around fake people. Its as simple as don't be fake and people will respect you.

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I think that everybody at some point is fake or acts different around certain people. I don't think I act differently around other people. except for maybe around my parents, When I'm with my friends I think that's when I'm being my self, because I don't need to act differently around my friends or people at school. When I'm at home Act pretty much the same way
I do at school.Except that Don't swear or anything when I'm around my parents, so that way I don't get in trouble. I usually talk to my parents alot like I would talk to one of my friends except just with more respect I guess, and I tell my parents some of the stuff that I do or that goes on in my life but I dont tell them everything. just cause its easier not to. I think I act different also if I'm meeting some one new, because then I'm usually quite and polite, because I dont really know the person, or if I'm around someone I dont really like because then im not friendly or nice to them.

I honestly don't know if I "assume a pose" or act differently around different groups of people. It's really hard to tell since I'm not even sure if I'm entirely true to myself. I generally act the same around everyone I know though. I don't really have a reason to try to be something I'm not, and I have no intentions to. My family doesn't pressure me to be something I don't want to be. Neither do my friends. I've never changed myself for anyone.

I guess at times, though, I do act differently around some people. It could be because I'm not too fond of them, and I'm shy or maybe I just don't really care for them. It really all just depends. At times I'll get these vibes from people and that'll cause me to act maybe more awkward and uneasy. I'll worry that they know something about me I don't want them to. Or that they're judging me all wrong. I read people's emotions and facial expressions too well, to the point that I can almost know exactly what they're thinking. And I guess in a way, I feel forced to act a certain way around them. It might just be intimidation but I still feel obligated to dim myself down. In that sense I'm not being who I truly am.

I feel like on a rare occasion my friends see who I truly am. Either because of the way I might have laughed or because of something childish I might have said. I feel like I'm way too complex though, and that it would be very hard to actually see who and what I am. Especially since I don't even know. And it's very hard to show your true self when you don't know what your true self is like. I try to show my true self to a few people, but to be realistic,I don't think anyone really knows themselves as well as they would like to think.

There is a quote by Gandhi that says "the best way to find yourself is to lose yourself in the service of others." I think this is very important to think about because most people are too stubborn, including myself, to think that it's possible that someone else can reveal who you really are.

Assume a pose

The question is do I "assume a pose" in my day-to-day life? I would have to say, in some situations, I do "assume a pose". I am a outgoing, creative, obnoxious, shy, loud, kind, sensative, and caring person. I show who I truely am most of the time. If somebody doesn't like how I act or who i am then they can choose not to interact with me. I show my true self mostly to my parents and family, because they live with me and see me at me worse of times. They really have no choice. On the other hand friends do.

I show my true personality to my friends and boyfriend. I don't want to be friends with anyone that I have to be someone else completely. The only time I don't show my true self is when I am around people I don't know, or when I am with my parents or friends in a place where I should be respectful and like a perfect child. Not be loud and obnoxious. Also, in a few situations I become friends with people who seem to be perfect or very judgmental.I try to be the as perfect as I can be to try to meet up to their maturity level. Most of the time this is with my older friends. So i just dull the characteristics that may negatively affect the thoughts of others.

Assume a Pose?.

When I'm with my close friends I act a lot different than I do when I'm with my family. Sometimes I feel bad that my family does not know the way I really am outside the house but if they knew I don't think they would approve. Its not that I'm a bad kid or anything, I just get very obnoxious and can draw a lot of attention to myself, when my family would rather keep a low profile.

When I'm with my friends I don't hold in my opinions or censor my language, I'm not afraid to made a fool of myself, and I can talk to them about anything, where with my family I can't do any of that. When I'm with my parents I don't swear, I'm not loud, & I act fairly responsible. If i acted the way I do with my family as I do with my friends there would be some issues. Its like my family doesn't understand what being a teenager is like, and they act like they skipped the teens years. School and friends houses are the only places I can be myself. It seems sad that my parents claim to know me, when they have no clue what happens when I walk out and close the front door everyday.

I feel the most like myself when I'm with my friends. Yeah, I do certain things that I would never do by myself, but who doesn't? Even with friends there is a certain amount of peer pressure that I tend to give in to, but its on things that won't hurt anything or anyone and that are not a very big deal.

I know that I feel bad that I can't be myself around my parents, but a lot of my friends are the same way, and keep certain things about themselves to themselves. I guess part of being a teenager is learning how to deal with parents that are not understanding and live two completely different lives at school and at home.

Favorite Memory

Great job on the favorite memory posts! I'll contribute one, too.

One of my favorite childhood memories was a slumber party for my friend Susan's birthday. I think it was either 2nd or 3rd grade, so I was either 7 or 8 years old. At that time, slumber parties were just about the coolest and most exciting thing in our lives. I remember being amazed that we were allowed to eat JUST macaroni and cheese for dinner at the party. I was used to my mother serving me well-balanced meals every night, so the idea of eating a big bowl of mac and cheese with no meat or vegetables to go with it was a thrill.

It was summertime, so we played outside after dinner. I remember it being warm, and we played some sort of game with water balloons. Summer nights are always so happy and carefree, and this was no exception.

The thing I remember most about the night, oddly enough, was watching the movie Ladybugs. Rodney Dangerfield plays a girls soccer coach who gets a boy (his son, I think?) to dress up as a girl to play for the team. We thought it was the most hilarious movie. More importantly, we were all in LOVE with Jonathan Brandis, who played the he-she soccer player. I wonder what ever happened to him? He doesn't even have a picture on imdb.com. I guess his career failed. Anyway, he was the first "celebrity crush" I ever had. I remember us all packed in together in our sleeping bags on the floor in Susan's basement. I stayed up later than I ever had in my life, feeling sort of guilty and thrilled about it at the same time.

The next morning when my mom came to pick me up, I felt this crushing sadness that it was over. I can't remember if I cried in front of my mom in the car, or waited until I got to my room at home, but I know I actually cried at some point. It's funny to me now, looking back, that I could've been THAT sad for a party to be over. This memory is special to me because it reminds me of those carefree childhood days. All the girls at the party were having fun together without a worry in the world. I wonder if Susan is on Facebook? I should look her up.

Favorite Memory

My favorite memory would have to be the time when I met tweety bird. My grandma used to take our family on a cruise every other year when I was little, this time it was The Big Red Boat. This boat was pretty much kid-orientated; there were Disney characters running around all over the boat 24/7.

Tweety Bird was my favorite character of all time when I was little. I had tweety sweaters, Tweety sheets and even Tweety light-up sneakers. We were half way through the vacation and all the excitement of being a cruise was coming to an end; I had seen all the shows, tried all the food and evidently gotten sick of the sea being the only thing to look at. My parents have always tried to surprise me with really meaningful gifts and experiences, and they decided that day would be one of those times.

The Day came to an end, and It was time for bed. After I brushed my teeth, I hopped into my flannel sheets and started falling asleep. Minutes later, I woke up to a huge yellow bird right above me. It scared me at first but when I realized who it was I jumped up and wrapped my arms and legs around him. I actually think I started to cry! I remember feeeling so lucky that I got to meet him.

After I settled down a little bit, he tucked me in. Everytime he tried leaving I jumped out of my bed so he hadf to tuck me in again. This still makes me smile, hands down BEST memory I have.

My favorite memory was when my mom and I went to see my brothers in Washington DC last summer. We left here at 6:00 am and made the first stop in New Jersey for some breakfast in Dunking’ Donuts. At 1:00 pm we got to DC and watched the World Cup game in the hotel. We were waiting for my brothers to finish work before going to see them. Finally around 7:00 pm we drove the five miles to their place. We got lost and I had to call my brother to help us find the house. They live in a neighborhood of hundreds of apartment buildings all close together. My brother came out and found us on the street.

I was so excited to see him because I hadn’t seen him for seven years and I didn’t know if it was him. He took us to the apartment where I saw my other brother. I did not recognize him any more either. We went out to have Mongolian Barbecue for dinner – my brother’s choice. We took some picture together before we came back to their house. At 10:00 pm my mom and I went back to the hotel. The next day we went to the National Zoo but it was so hot that the animals didn’t want to come outside. After we left the Zoo we had dinner in a restaurant called Pollo Campero - a restaurant where we used to eat when we were in my country.

The next day, July 4th, we went to the White House, the Washington Monument, and the Lincoln Memorial. We had dinner in Chinatown at Tony Chang’s and later that night, we sat on the lawn of the Capitol and watched the fireworks. That night it was so beautiful outside and thousands of people from all over the world were there but more special was that my brothers were there with me. It was so important to me because I haven’t seen them for a long time and I wanted to see them pretty badly. It was nice to talk to them in my two dialects, to share stories of the past and to eat homemade tamales – our favorite food in my country.

Lovin' This Memory

One of my most precious memories is the night me and a group of my friends went on a camping adventure. It was just turning into Fall, probably around late September, and we all decided that it would be a good night to go deep into the woods, and just hang out this one night before it got too cold. We started setting up camp at around 6, and it was already getting dark. We had to make several trips up to where we planned on camping, and that was probably about a mile walk. Once we had brought up all the equipment and set up the tent and everything, we realized that we didn't bring any fire wood. So we walked back to my friends house, and when we got there, another one of my friends just happened to show up. We were all excited cause we weren't expecting to see him, and he stayed with us as well. For the rest of the night, we just hung out by the fire, and had a good night of hanging out.

The next morning, we all woke up at around six o' clock because we wanted to get the day started early. We broke down camp, and went back to my friends house and made peanut butter sandwiches. After we wolfed those down, we were all really excited to go on an adventure through the woods, on our way to the general store to buy a pizza. As we walked through the wilderness, we were all laughing and having a good time. One of my friends went berserk, and knocked over a substantially large tree. We all cracked up, even though we were all a bit frightened. But eventually we made it out of the woods, and on to this dirt road near where i live. We walked around a corner and down a hill on Old Sawmill Road, and as soon as we reached the bottom, you could see Bungee Lake, and it was honestly one of the prettiest things I'd ever seen. The sun was shining so bright, and vivid, and the warmth it gave off was magnificent. As we kept walking, we came across a dam with a bridge over it. We walked over the bridge like we normally would, but as we were coming to the end of it, my friend looked down and saw the largest snapping turtle he ever saw. It was easily twenty-five pounds, and it was quite the shocker. We wanted to play with it, but that probably wouldn't have been smart, and we knew it.

We still kept walking, making our way to the store, and by now we had probably walked three or four miles. We were coming down this very steep hill on a back road, and at the base of the hill was a little private beach. We took a break there for a while, and just relaxed for a bit. Once we started walking again, we noticed a dog tied to a tree. At first glance, the dog looked like it only had three legs, and it was really quite shocking. Everyone freaked out for a few seconds, and then we looked back at the dog, and it had four legs and was completely normal. Who knows why we thought it was three legged. I guess your imagination just gets the best of you sometimes. Anyway, we kept walking to the store and got there about fifteen minutes later.

Once we got there, one of my friends went in and bought some soda and ordered a taco pizza. It's all that I wanted to eat, and we were all talking about it the whole walk there. Myself and everyone else went outside and sat at some picnic tables. It was nice to have something to drink, and just chill for a bit. After waiting for twenty minutes after ordering the pizza, the waitress came out and told us our pizza was ready. My friend went in again to get it, and as he went to pay, he realized that we were three or four dollars short. So instead of the woman just allowing us to get the pizza she had already made, she took it back to the kitchen, and left us out to dry.

At this point, i was really angry, and hungry, and just ready to go home and relax. I had a fun day, but it was time for it to end. So we all walked back to my friends house, got picked up, and that was it. Nothing really too eventful happened in this specific memory, but it was something that I really enjoyed, and won't ever forget.